Have you ever had a day, week, or month where you are just down? Well this is my month or year for that apparently. I am going through a lot right now. I don't want to go into detail, but I just need some encouraging words right now. I know that what is happening to me has got to be normal, but I can't take it. We are having some marriage issues, and I don't know where this will go. I want so badly to be with my family in Alabama, and I think that might have a lot to do with why I'm feeling this way. I don't know what is giving me that desire to go home, but it is worse than it was when I first moved out here. And the crazy thing is, I love Texas. That's why I'm so confused. I don't want to be in Alabama, but I want my family. I have missed ALL of my newphews first everything, and it hurts. None of my family gets to see Ant's firsts or be here for everything going on, and I just can't take it. I have wonderful friends and family here, but what do I do now? How do I please everyone? I thought I was doing pretty damn good being away from all my family, but I'm starting to see that I'm not. So I'm torn, and I have no idea what to do. I just want to lay in bed and cry right now....I need some advice.